Stay Happy
Finally found a template I'm happy with! Love the colours and layout of this one. Definitely a keeper!
With a few tweaks here and there, will be perfect!
With a few tweaks here and there, will be perfect!
Procrastinating
pro·cras·ti·nate
A big problem of mine. In all areas of my life. Need to buy something? I'll buy it tomorrow. Need to study something? I'll study it later. Need to go somewhere? I'm too tired now. Should go exercising? Ugh, not now, it's too cold/too hot.
Even when it comes to things I enjoy doing I procrastinate. For example, my recipe 'book'. I'm an avid recipe collector and have tons of recipes in my bookmarks that I would like to group in a book-sort-of-thing, but I'm too lazy to do that and I can't seem to find the exact design to do it. Been going on about this for some months now, it sucks, really.
I'm going to try and do something now!
Breathe in, breathe out
It's been so long since I last wrote anything here. I just don't find the will to do it. Also, I don't know what to write about.
Anyway, life carries on, since last time (nearly 2 months ago). University is going alright, I guess. Already had 1 test, and 16 out of 20, is not that bad, actually! I'm happy about that.
Now that it's November, the days not so much, but the nights are really really cold where I live. In portuguese standards anyway. I know that our 10ºC would be lovely for some people, but for me it's already really cold.
To be honest, all this cold makes me think about Christmas. I enjoy Christmas. (well,most of it. I despise the fact that every year I have to deal with a lunch with my most annoyingly retarded cousins) The thing I like the most are the lights, the red, the green, the gold and silver. Christmas decorations make me happy!
And of course, lets not forget the Home Alone films! Those are a Christmas must-see!
I've been thinking about doing this blog a daily thing, but I don't really know if I have the will to do it. My biggest problem is that I don't know what to post here, and then when I post is just incoherent rambling like this. Me talking to myself (but I'm already used to it!).
One thing I've been enjoying lately is Fanfiction. I don't know why, but since I found it I've been hooked to it. I love reading, and reading original stories about my favorite books is awesome! My most favorite Fanfiction themes are Harry Potter, Howl's Moving Castle and Spirited Away. Love love love some things I found. Absolute gems and amazing to read. I'll post here some finds one day!
Back to life
Now that the holidays are over it's time to get back to university. Finally.
Hopefully this year will be better and more productive than the last year, which wasn't so good.
First year is always the worst, right?
I'm so happy to be back for numerous reasons. Mainly because I truly enjoy living here, but also, because being able to mind my own business without having to give explanations to anyone and do what I want, it's very liberating.
This couple of months of holidays were truly suffocating.
Every good thing always has a bad side. I'd say that in this case there are two downsides to all this.
First, the fact I will miss my family. I'll be seeing them every other weekend but it's not the same, and sometimes I can feel really lonely without having them around. But, they are always a phone call away!
The second, is that I grew attached to someone ,over the summer, with whom I can only talk to online, and considering my lack of time for everything in general, I don't know how often we will be able to talk, and when we do, for how long.
First year is always the worst, right?
I'm so happy to be back for numerous reasons. Mainly because I truly enjoy living here, but also, because being able to mind my own business without having to give explanations to anyone and do what I want, it's very liberating.
This couple of months of holidays were truly suffocating.
Every good thing always has a bad side. I'd say that in this case there are two downsides to all this.
First, the fact I will miss my family. I'll be seeing them every other weekend but it's not the same, and sometimes I can feel really lonely without having them around. But, they are always a phone call away!
The second, is that I grew attached to someone ,over the summer, with whom I can only talk to online, and considering my lack of time for everything in general, I don't know how often we will be able to talk, and when we do, for how long.
Anyway, we'll see how it goes.
Now, it's time to go out.
Now, it's time to go out.
Insomnia
This past few days I've been struggeling with falling asleep. I'm not sleepy, I'm not tired, and I don't feel any need to go sleep although I know I must to go.
It's 5.43 am as I am writing this and I don't know what is wrong with me. Is it my bio clock that is totally screwed up? Is it anxiety? Stubbornness? I have no idea, I just know it gets more and more frustrating every night.
I know I won't be able to fall asleep until the sun rises, and it sucks. I feel like I'm wasting my life and the remaining days of my holidays, and I feel hopeless.
I've been considering getting sleeping pills but I don't want to get into that, I want to be able to simply fall asleep without something forcing me to.
For now, I'm just going to try. Close my eyes, forget the rest of the world and fall into my wild dreams.
But, before doing that, I'm going to listen to this. It always calms me down.
Goodnight (morning)
No, I can't feel that, but I can feel hope that one day I'll be able to feel that.
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