This past few days I've been struggeling with falling asleep. I'm not sleepy, I'm not tired, and I don't feel any need to go sleep although I know I must to go.
It's 5.43 am as I am writing this and I don't know what is wrong with me. Is it my bio clock that is totally screwed up? Is it anxiety? Stubbornness? I have no idea, I just know it gets more and more frustrating every night.
I know I won't be able to fall asleep until the sun rises, and it sucks. I feel like I'm wasting my life and the remaining days of my holidays, and I feel hopeless.
I've been considering getting sleeping pills but I don't want to get into that, I want to be able to simply fall asleep without something forcing me to.
For now, I'm just going to try. Close my eyes, forget the rest of the world and fall into my wild dreams.
But, before doing that, I'm going to listen to this. It always calms me down.
Goodnight (morning)
No, I can't feel that, but I can feel hope that one day I'll be able to feel that.
