Back to life

Now that the holidays are over it's time to get back to university. Finally.

Hopefully this year will be better and more productive than the last year, which wasn't so good.
First year is always the worst, right?

I'm so happy to be back for numerous reasons. Mainly because I truly enjoy living here, but also, because being able to mind my own business without having to give explanations to anyone and do what I want, it's very liberating.

This couple of months of holidays were truly suffocating.

Every good thing always has a bad side. I'd say that in this case there are two downsides to all this.
First, the fact I will miss my family. I'll be seeing them every other weekend but it's not the same, and sometimes I can feel really lonely without having them around. But, they are always a phone call away!

The second, is that I grew attached to someone ,over the summer, with whom I can only talk to online, and considering my lack of time for everything in general, I don't know how often we will be able to talk, and when we do, for how long.

Anyway, we'll see how it goes.
Now, it's time to go out.

Insomnia


This past few days I've been struggeling with falling asleep. I'm not sleepy, I'm not tired, and I don't feel any need to go sleep although I know I must to go.

It's 5.43 am as I am writing this and I don't know what is wrong with me. Is it my bio clock that is totally screwed up? Is it anxiety? Stubbornness? I have no idea, I just know it gets more and more frustrating every night.

I know I won't be able to fall asleep until the sun rises, and it sucks. I feel like I'm wasting my life and the remaining days of my holidays, and I feel hopeless.
I've been considering getting sleeping pills but I don't want to get into that, I want to be able to simply fall asleep without something forcing me to.

For now, I'm just going to try. Close my eyes, forget the rest of the world and fall into my wild dreams.


But, before doing that, I'm going to listen to this. It always calms me down.
Goodnight (morning)



No, I can't feel that, but I can feel hope that one day I'll be able to feel that.


New Addiction

Your mind

I want to enter your mind and understand how you feel.

Or, well, you could just freaking tell me. But that's not happening anytime soon.

Happy Birthday H.P.




If he was alive, Howard Phillips Lovecraft would be 122 years old today. 






Rest in Peace, sir.

Fluffyness


Up is a favorite film of mine and Dug my favorite character.

He's too cute :)









Enjoy the fluffyness...

... SQUIRREL!